The Blog of kinkitty

Or at least, I have a very close friend, that needs help (but by now, you should all know that that is one and the same thing)

If any of you reading this happens to live in the state of Nevada, US, or are/know a good divorce lawyer there, or have first hand experience of a devorce in that state, can you please contact me by PM urgently. I have a friend in desperate need.

Your help regarding this will be greatly appreciated.

Kinkitty Hugs.

If you were reading my Blogs over the last two weeks you will know that I ran into my daughter's father after all these years, we had a bumpy reunion at first, my mother interfered in getting the news to my daughter, and I have my daughter over this weekend to have the "meet your daddy" talks. We have had EP discussions about what a fuck-up the whole situation was, I had my support network rushing in to support me (btw .. thank you for that, I was at a loss there for a day or two) We also had discussions about what my daughter will/may need from this.

Well, I am here to report back to each and every one of you that stood by me through all this. (both old friends and great family member, and the new friends I made because of this) I love you all and I would have struggled to get to where I am today without you.

I only have good things to report about this weekend. You would have notice that I was on here a lot less then I use to be... well that's because the reunion between me and him went great ... we are now friends, and I now remember why I fell so completely in love with him all those years ago.

We talked for hours on skype, I spoke with my daughter and she was keen on meeting him, we send some e-mails and he replied, she spoke with him on skype several times, we had a few video conferences and I have never seen my daughter as happy as I did this weekend.

Her words on this "he's very cool, much better then I ever expected him to be"

And the perfect ending to this great blog, he is planning to visit South Africa next year to meet her in person.

I know ... I know ... please relax .. I did not go crazy .. I enjoy good humor too!

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now can someone please tell me how to post vids in my blogs?

 

The darkness fades as the deep black turns to dark blue .. before the sun rises … yes .. I am referring to this magical time when time itself stands still, when everything is completely quite … almost waiting for something to happen to start the day … steam rising from the little river quietly trickling by. Then it happens … the birds starts to sing, animals starts their daily scurrile, and the forest becomes alive as the sun peeps over the horizon.

 

The red’s, yellow’s and brown’s of fall almost starts to glimmer at first touch of the sun’s rays. However cold it is out here at this moment, it’s always worth the drive out here … getting up way to early this morning just to have an excuse to take another rout to work … telling myself that this seeing beauty will somehow sooth the emptiness inside.

 

But not today. Today I let the tears flow freely. The warmth running over my ice cold cheeks …. Here where no-one can see me, where no-one will ask why. I don’t know why .. I don’t want to know today. I just know that it would have been great to have a strong arm to hold me now. Great to not be so alone anymore.

 

The sun now completed it’s rise, and the tears have dried. I get back into my car, touch up the make-up, and prepare my smile for today. Mmm lets see which smile will I wear today? The happy one, the kind one, the friendly one? Dare I go through today not wearing a smile? Will I be able to say why I’m sad? NO! let’s do the happy one today. ….

 

An anonymous person just sent me a gift ... saying make 3 wises! Well good luck to me! I get 3 wises and the bloody genie stays anon .... just my luck .... thanks genie!

 

Kinkitty Hugs

... staining the water with a kaleidoscope of colors, water jumping up into the air with joy, forming waves rushing to meet shore…. And when they break in those smaller waves galloping playfully over the beach towards me, then tiring and leaving only the foam to come and gently kiss my feet.

It is alive, isn't it? It lives and breaths and plays, it even tires. Sometimes I can feel it's sadness, taste the salt in it's tears. See it's anger when it pounds against the rocks! See it's kind love when it comes to meet me.

 

Not knowing where you're going, not caring. Just getting away, onto a strange place that will embrace you with it's warmth. As the sun rises over your campsite, and the morning dew starts trickling off the leaves. The campfire busy warming up our morning coffee, and a new day awaits, new discoveries, new adventures, a new life, new love, new meaning.
Here's to a new beginning. Here's to those brave enough to leave the past behind. Here's to love lost and life found! Here's to life! Be blessed on your journey, o brave one. May you find the peace you deserve. This wind will dry your tears, and this rain will shower your soul. When you come to find yourself, you may not find someone you knew, you may find the new, better you. The strong, brave, lovable you. Yes, the you, you have been hiding from!

…. the rise and plummet of the dunes, the sun licking your body with it's hot tongue, a hot breeze moving through your wet hair, giving temporary relieve from the heat. Am I even supposed to be here? Did nature not reserve this place for something else? Something greater then me? Do I feel this intense discomfort because I am trespassing on holy ground?

 

What is it about this so called "god forsaken" place, that makes me want to feel spiritual every time I enter? What great might lies within these small grains of sand? As another sun sets gracefully behind the dunes, changing their complexion, I can not help but gaze in wonder of the greatness of this unforgiving place.

 

 

My mood: extremely numb
 

 

down the mighty Zambesi, at first negotiating a calm river to soon find yourself paddling with all your might! How crazy this water had become, how sudden this attack, how urgent this fight for survival. From a easy breath a moment ago, to gasping for air as soon as the river allows you. From seeing a open blue sky to being completely swallowed, and surrounded by these masses of angry water.
Then, just when your body gets tired, and your limbs become numb, and you stop to struggle, just before your lungs decide to explode, just before your mind tells you that death is here to take you, this body of water becomes forgiving and spits you out. Frees you to float a while, recover, restore your strengths, restore your faith in yourself. Then, without to much prior notice, it launches another vicious attack!
Is it just playing with me and does it not know it's own strength, does it not know my weakness? Or does this river hate me, is it trying to take my precious life? Yes, it is MY life and it's is PRECIOUS! And I will fight for it!
I know that today I will only have seven of these attacks, I will fight for my life only seven times today, I know this river, and I know that it has no malicious intent. Tonight, I will go on another boat on this same river, I will be on silky smooth water, and as the sun sets I will gasp for air again… the sheer beauty that surrounds me will touch my soul. I will cry a tear, I will smile a smile, I will learn something about myself and my limits, I will dream a new dream and tomorrow morning, with the dawn of the new day, I will meet the new me.

 

May heaven forgive you
for breaking my heart
you said that you love me
you lied from the start
The kisses you gave me
were only for fun
may heaven forgive you
for what you have done!
You showed me the meaning
Of heartache and pain
I can not believe it
my tears are still your rain
May heaven forgive you
'cause darling I don't.

 

My mind is blown
My thoughts are gone
I am your captive
You turn me on
You fill my senses
Confuse my mind
You are lightning
You make me blind
You are magic
A sure love potion
I simply can't handle
This emotion
When did it happen
When did it start
Somehow you just
Got hold of my heart

I have been asked to share my creative writing in my blog space since it seem to get totally lost between my other stories ...

I have put it off till now (yea, ok, you have me ... I don't know how the blog thing works), but today I will go through my stories and seek out the nicer ones and leave it here for you to find.

*now if I can only figure out how this works*